As has become pretty apparent here, for any regular reader, I have not been doing much. I’ve put up some shots of my ongoing Heldrake paint job but that’s about it. The reason is that I have been doing pretty damn terrible at 40K lately and that saps away my motivation for writing about it. As most know, I’m not out to win them all but when you find yourself being tabled more often than not, well that just blows.
What I’m not going to do here is bitch about everything except for myself and place blame elsewhere. I’m not delusional. I can’t make every codex balanced or fix some of those rules in 6th that bug me but I can improve myself.
I’m a hobbyist. I enjoy painting and it’s not just a means to an end. I love putting down models I think are cool and buying at least one of everything, making me also a collector. I am also a gamer and a close fought battle between friends is how I like my games to go; not nuking my opponent off the table. However, the hobbyist in me is hampering my ability as a gamer and I need to find a balance.
My problem as a hobbyist is my collection is often too diversified. Diversity is great and having a huge collection to pull from ideal but when you’re initially building out your army it can be a hindrance. I had a goal in mind when the newest Chaos Marines codex came out and my love of models has overruled that and seen my goal blur. Now, instead of having a thought out collection with which to expand from, I have a hodge-podge of stuff that isn’t exactly the most coherent collection when it comes to list building.
That being said, my goal isn’t clearly defined now either. I still feel that I have barely touched the codex so far, even a year later, and I’m having a hard time committing to any one style to be able to build towards it. That is what has driven me into the rut I’m very familiar with, indecision.
I have no goal with this article or enlightening conclusion. I take that back, my goal was to spew this out in the hopes that it leads me somewhere. At least I kept it short and some of you read through it because I’m curious, do you find yourself in this situation and if so, what do you do about it?