You ever have that realization that you are your own downfall in a game? That there’s some daemon lurking inside your mind telling you to do stupid stuff despite the fact you know it’s a bad idea? I feel that way and I need to exorcise my daemons.
Now, we’re not talking about bad deployment, poor lists, terrible strategy. What I’m referring to is that voice you hear in various situations that says, “Don’t worry about it, it’ll be fine. Sure, it’s risky but it will all work out.” Let me give you a prime example. I was playing a game yesterday and long story short, a refused flank deployment was key. I was going second and had the benefit of seeing how that would be crucial to my deployment. I began deploying in such a manner and then thought, “Hmm, if I put this unit closer to him I can get a clear lane of fire for a turn. Sure, they’ll die but they’ll do a bunch of damage first. Oh, and if I put this other unit over here to support that first unit then I’ll ensure maximum damage before death.” I bet you can guess what happened. Those two units did virtually nothing and died. It then allowed him to consolidate closer and leave me a bit flat-footed.
That is just one such example, I have many. I’m not a bad player but I do stupid things at times. I figure if I were a bad player then I wouldn’t recognize my mistakes or question what that little daemon who whispers soothingly into my ear says. It’s tough. The thing I believe that keeps me doing it is the risk vs reward. It’s a huge risk, the reward could be big, it’s a gamble and if it pays off then I’ll be sitting in a good position. Naturally the risk generally far outweighs the reward, which of course makes it a bad idea. However, it’s like skydiving, bungee jumping, or any number of extreme sports. Dangerous and life threatening but an amazing adrenaline rush.
I’m not after pity or any of those I play who read this to boost my morale. I figure the best way I can overcome this glaring weakness is to admit it and what better way of doing that then putting it all out there?