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That Feeling of Sitting on the Cusp of Greatness

    As I previously mentioned, Creative Twilight has hit the 10 year mark for its anniversary and it’s gotten me thinking.

    See, when I started this blog I had no idea what I was doing. I’m a PHP programmer who works for a local web hosting company and websites are what I do. However, a blog is a whole other animal. It requires attention, nurturing, and engagement unlike a typical website.

    Over those years I’ve learned a lot of lessons, and most the hard way. I was/am ambitious and thought this was a lot easier to do successfully than it is – blogging.

    In the past few years I feel like I’ve finally hit my stride with Creative Twilight. I’m focusing on quality over quantity. I’m creating tutorials that I hope people find useful, and I’m painting miniatures I hope people find inspirational. I feel as though I’ve found my place.

    My painting has also come a long way. The days of a base coat with a dry brush are behind me. I’m tackling advanced techniques like blending and NMM to really push myself as an artist and I’m loving every moment of it.

    Still, despite the success of Creative Twilight and the noticeable advancements in my miniature painting, I can’t help but feel I haven’t made it where I want to be yet. That I’m sitting on the cusp of greatness and I’m completely unsure how to reach it.

    It’s sort of hard to explain too but I’m hoping some people know what I’m talking about. This isn’t something that’s specific to blogging or painting but a general life feeling.

    It’s as though you know you’re capable of more. That you could conquer the world if you only knew how. I know I could make Creative Twilight one of the most popular miniature painting blogs but I can’t quite grasp it. I know my painting could be even better, and I’m trying, but I’m just not there.

    There’s this lingering feeling that resides within. An urge to just be better, do better. Yet, finding that release is just out of reach. You can see it vaguely, but every time you sit and consider a path you find it hidden. It’s sort of a malaise really.

    I have no point to this article other than just getting that off my chest. Maybe that’s what I’ve needed – my release. I also thought there might be others reading this who could relate. Maybe yet, others who shared what I described and found their path, to which I’d love to hear about.

    Also, I’ve wanted to do more blogging and just share. To let you all get to know me more.

    So, there you have it. A walk inside my mind ;)


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    David Chilvers
    David Chilvers
    4 years ago

    Congratulations on the anniversary

    4 years ago

    Thanks for sharing! I do like reading these kinds of posts :)

    Cadian Shock
    4 years ago

    I hear you brother!

    Rory - Stepping Between Games

    Strong play chief. It had been great to see your painting advance and I have had plenty of use out of the tutorials, advice and posts.

    Keep it up.

    Dave Weston
    4 years ago

    Yep, I know exactly what you mean. I want mine to be successful but equally remind myself success was not its function. I’d also claim the more successful the less introspective, like this very post Thor, you can be. When there’s few dozen, or even hundreds you can talk on that personal level, when it’s more I’d imagine you’d feel obliged to change the tone. I dunno, it’s just a theory.

    I’m not sure what to do to take it to the next level. Ultimately we’re discussing a niche topic on a platform that has declined, or plateaued in the last few years. Unless you’re going to dip into video and YouTube I’m not sure how it can get much bigger, you’ll certainly gain followers but I couldn’t imagine my own site ever doubling it’s hits [which it was back in 2016].

    Natfkas blog is still successful, despite GW managing to plug so many gaps that rumours and spy shots are outdated within hours of the scoop. Reposting what the GW Community page does seems redundant and what’s on folks hobby table has never got me huge views linking to my blog but his hits keep rocking up. Its a different sort of blog that offers a one-stop-shop for hobby gossip, maybe theres something to learn from his model [although I think your blog clearly has that professional touch your expertise affords].

    4 years ago

    Greatness is a journey not a destination. Additionally it is not something one can perscribe themselves. Others can declare it of you or your actions or works. I think you are on the right path if you are finding joy in your life and the things you do. There will always be the next challenge the next thing to learn so long as you do not become complacent and stagnant. Find joy in the challenge and seek the next challenge that to me is a fulfilling mindset for life.

    Rock in buddy hope to see ya in the future sometime this year.

    4 years ago
    Reply to  Thor

    For sure! Wether you play or not I would love to see your work in person you’ve made huge leaps! I wish you the best of luck with your life stuff!

    4 years ago
    Reply to  Thor

    Do it!